A tough choice

If confusion was a kingdom, I would be its reigning queen. For the past few weeks there has been this tug of war inside my head which threatens to drive me crazy.

I wish it was something like team Jacob versus Team Edward, something I’d have an immediate answer to, and something that would not threaten to change my life forever. (Bella will perhaps tell me with a fiery look in her eyes that choosing Edward did change her life- made her a vampire-but I’d scoff at her and say ‘wrong choice’).

The battle in my head is a bit more complicated. It is a clash between Shakespeare and Newton. Between playing with words or playing with machines. Being a writer or being an engineer. I know after two years of mind numbing physics problems, I should perhaps just choose the engineering route just to justify all that back breaking work.

And of course, people tell me that anyone can be a writer, you don’t need a degree for it. Especially in India, where I guess people decide to first get an engineering degree and then figure out what they want to accomplish in life. Fair enough, when you need to make yourself heard in a land of a billion people, a good professional degree works well. Otherwise you are called illiterate for the rest of your life, even if you are better read than any of the engineers or lawyers that the education system produces. So basically there are a lot of reasons why I should do engineering.

But perhaps because of my irrevocable love of books, I have long romanticized the idea of becoming a writer. It helps that I love to put my thoughts on paper. I started writing for a students’ newspaper ‘The Global Times’ in grade six. And since then, I have not looked back. My recent internship with click4college reinstated my belief in my writing abilities. As did the Facebook quiz which revealed that I was Shakespeare in my past life. (I am sort of ignoring the fact that I don’t believe in reincarnation).

Now, I am caught in a terrible dilemma. My mind is a cesspool of pros and cons of each subject. It’s a tough choice. Maybe, I’ll just engineer a book.

P.S- I should just drop all this and perhaps pursue psychology instead. Perhaps that will give me a better understanding of the human mind.